Waiting in the Boat

Matthew 14:25-31

Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake.  When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.

 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”

“Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”

 “Come,” he said.

Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”

Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”

I have been living in Haiti for over a month now. It has been the best summer of my life and I am no where near ready to leave. I have gotten to know some AMAZING people! I've been given the privilege of serving alongside those AMAZING people and I have been so blessed by it.

This whole summer I've been trying to seek God's will for me after this summer. I've been trying to figure out if I am suppose to come back to Haiti full time, if I am suppose to go to college, if I came back to Haiti what would I do, and many other question that have weighed heavily on my heart. These last few weeks I have really been struggling with these questions. I love sooooo many of the ministries here. I love the kids in the Miriam Center. I love all of the amazing Haitian staff. I love the babies in the Birthing Center. My heart breaks for the beautiful girls that come to the clinic who have been sexually abused and I love them and want them to know that God loves them too.

Last night during group devotions the team that shared talked about Matthew 14:25-31. I am like Peter in the boat. I am waiting for Jesus to tell me to "Come." I am anxiously and excitedly waiting for Jesus to tell me to "Come." I want to get out of this boat!!! I really have no idea where He will tell me to "Come." It could be anywhere. It could be to Haiti, Ecuador, America, Canada, Manhattan, Africa... All I know is that God has a plan(Jeremiah 29:11) and I am trying to patiently follow it.

My prayer for this season is, 

"Lord, if it's you, tell me to come to you on the water."

Please be praying for patience as I try to wait patiently for God to tell me to "Come." Please be praying that God would continue to prepare me for when He does call me out of the boat. Please be praying that when God calls me out of this boat that I would always stay focused on Him. Despite the storm that will surround me and try to sink me, I will cling to Him. I will trust Him to provide for all of my needs. He is faithful.